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New Fic: go lift your sails up (for one last swell) (1/1), Mature

go lift your sails up (for one last swell)

Sam/Jack. Every Jack Loves Every Sam. Takes place roughly mid-series. Alternate Reality or AU (up to interpretation). Unbeta’ed, so all mistakes are mine (feel free to point out mistakes). Title taken gratefully from Dessa’s Sound the Bells.

She tastes like Sam, like he remembers her and not like six months dead, and the relief blooms so sharp in his chest that he can hardly breathe.Collapse )
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Wow

I take a fitness class Tues-Thurs at the the community college I go to, and although it's only a 0800, I have to get the kids ready and to daycare through Hampton Roads traffic, so I usually have to get up 0530ish every morning except Friday and the weekends.

Anyway, this morning after class I went to take a shower, but I was so, so tired I thought I'd just sit for a minute on the really narrow, uncomfortable bench in the shower stall before I got to it.

Well, I fell asleep. Sitting up. For an hour.

I mean, it's not like I had anywhere to go, but still. How did I do it? I don't even know how I stayed upright. Apparently no one thought it was strange or worrisome that a random person's feet were sticking out from under the stall wall and this person wasn't moving. Sigh.

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A drive-by plea:

I give. No more NCIS Tony/Ziva babyfic. I surrender. What do you want from me? Money? Sex? Power? I'll give it to you. I'll give you anything you want. Just tell me what you want.

Just no more babyfic. I can't take any more. Please.

I beg you.

No more babyfic.

*whimpers*







*Brought to you by Tumblr: The Land of Torturous Overwhelming Out of Character Infant Schmoooziness.
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mrv_3000
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Llamas! (Not really. More pregnancy shenanigans.)

GUYS. My body is crazy, ya'll.

I do, sadly, have cholestasis, but the good news is that I'm being treated with the right meds (which are now helping!), the baby is being monitored twice-weekly for any problems, and I'm being induced Friday the 12th (at 5am - yikes!) 3 weeks early to avoid any issues that the baby might face if we wait. So while my body sucks, at least we are taking all the right precautions!

However, I was hospitalized again Friday/Saturday due to my overactive uterus (I don't know, is this a thing?) - in other words, I started contracting like crazy Friday morning, which was picked up on (along with some minor dips in baby girl's heartbeat) during my non-stress test that day and they sent me up to L&D for monitoring. Once there, they confirmed what they thought at the time was preterm labor (technically I would still be preterm, since I'm not 37 weeks until Wednesday) and admitted me overnight fully expecting that I'd deliver.

Thankfully (and oddly), although I was contracting every 1-2 minutes for several hours (and dilated 4cm) my contractions calmed down overnight and they sent me home Saturday (they weren't going to stop my labor at this point, but they weren't going to help it along either). Very strange, but good in that Josie gets a few more days to mature.

Also: having knocked out two major groups of antibiotics due to allergy, my body apparently thought it would be a great idea to go for a third. I'm also Group B Strep positive (as if we need anything else going on, right?), and had a bad reaction to the antibiotic they gave me to treat it. I am already itchy, body, I DID NOT ALSO NEED HIVES, THANKS. Apparently I also had an infection that I was unaware of? I don't even with you, self.

Anyway. Things are calmer now, although I'm still contracting painfully, just not regularly. I have no idea if we'll make it to Friday. Mom is here to help out and watch M. when the time comes, which is wonderful and stress-reducing, so I'm happy. We can handle this.

Huh. I should probably cool it on the use of parentheses, yes?

grouphug_obiwankenobi
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I really do have the loveliest friends.

Look at what [personal profile] tielan sent me!



Sel, I got these wonderful gifts while my mother and sister-in-law and nephews were visiting, and wanted to wait until they left to thank you so I could do it properly. ;) I also got the cookie cutters, and they're not in the picture because we already used them to make sugar cookies for Easter (and they are CUTE AND DELICIOUS).

Also, I couldn't wait to open the Tam Tams before taking the picture. I have no self-control when it comes to chocolate. Especially these cookies! The bookmark is so beautiful (and I didn't want to open the envelope, because the seal was so pretty, so I just kinda opened around it), and thank you so much for thinking of Max and Josie too! You rock so much.

Seriously, you completely made my week with these gifts, and your timing couldn't have been better as these past few weeks have been tough. You are so appreciated. (The icon above is me sending you lots of virtual hugs.)
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Please, body, just work the way you are supposed to. Please.

Ugh, guys. I could use a break.

A few nights ago I woke up around 3am to the most intense itching sensation in my hands that I have ever felt (really, anywhere). And then the itching spread, from my arms to my belly to my legs and finally my feet. I was up all night and no amount of itching I did seemed to make any difference. I didn't (and still don't) have a rash, so it didn't occur to me that it might be an actual problem.

But it kept up the next day (although the all-over itching wasn't as bad) and my hands were still crazy itchy so I called the clinic, and one of the providers had me come in for some blood work to check her suspicions that I might have something called cholestasis of pregnancy. It's a liver/gallbladder (more gallbladder, I guess?) function problem that involves bile acid building up in the blood, causing really bad itching all over (but mostly in the hands and feet).

And do I ever itch. Jesus christ, even my ears itch. The thing is, it's not all the time (except for the bottoms of my feet. I would really love to just get some sandpaper to line my socks with and walk around with it ALL DAY) - in fact, I had a lull today where I hardly had any itching, and I thought, yay! Maybe it was all in my head, or a reaction to something! Nope. Came back this afternoon with a vengeance. My left arm, my right thigh, my neck, and my scalp are all raw. I'm trying not to scratch, but it's really, really difficult. I'm having a tough time sleeping, too, because the itching gets really bad at night, and there's just not much I can do to relieve it. The doc gave me an antihistamine, which really doesn't help the itching but does help me sleep for a few hours, so there's that.

Other than the itching, there's no real risk to me, but there is a risk of health problems for the baby which is why, if it is what I have (maybe it's not!), I'd like to start getting treated for it. Unfortunately, the bile acid test isn't something they do in house so they had to send it out, so it may take a little while. My providers have been very nice and proactive, though, and I have a follow-up appointment coming up, so we'll deal with it then (if I don't break down and beg for relief before then). It may also involve delivering the baby a few weeks early, but I'm not worrying about that yet since we don't even know if I have the disorder.

Just...please god let the itching go away soon. Please. The Hubs is gone and I have a kid to take care of and schoolwork to do, and I'm so tired and uncomfortable. Please, please let it go away.

stewart_yikes
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It's been a few long, strange, sad, yet wonderful weeks.

So these things happened: found out my husband is getting deployed again, got into a (minor) car accident, had an early-labor scare and spent some time in the hospital, and was surprised by my husband and almost all of my best friends for a weekend o' (no-stress) fun and baby shower.

The Hubs is getting deployed (again) to Afghanistan (again) in May, just weeks (or days, as the case may be) after I'm due to give birth (again).Collapse )

Josie almost decided to come early, but thankfully didn't.Collapse )

In the midst of the car accident and hospital drama, it turns out that Hubs (aiming for the Best Spouse award) was conspiring with my best friends to throw me a surprise weekend visit/baby shower.Collapse )

One last thing: M. turned three yesterday!Collapse )

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Also

I reported a drug deal I witnessed in a 711 parking lot today, and now I'm feeling guilty about it, and so I am extra special grouchy today.

And I am really goddamned pregnant.

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A brief (anecdotal) note on women in combat.

Women can't haul a 6'4" 230 lb man out off the battlefield!

What the fuck do you think female medics do? Does it also occur to you that most MEN could not single-handedly haul my husband (who is 6'5" and 240 lbs, actually) off a battlefield? That it would probably take two or three guys of average weight and build in the military to get him out?

Also, have you heard of physical fitness standards? Or that 3 out of 10 Americans (MALE AND female) couldn't currently meet those physical standards, and yet there are still fit MEN and WOMEN fighting in our military?

Women can't pee outdoors!

FOR FUCK'S SAKE. Did you know that women are issued She-wees for use out in the field or for when they are in a convoy and can't stop to take a leak? No? Did you know that they already use these contraptions- GASP - around men? Did you know that women ALREADY PEE IN FRONT OF OTHER GUYS AND WOMEN IN THE FIELD, ASSHOLES?

Women can't hold up in combat situations!

YOU ARE A FUCKING IDIOT. Women are already SERVING IN COMBAT ZONES. THEY HAVE BEEN THERE FOR A WHILE. THERE HAVE BEEN FEMALE POWs (AS EARLY AS THE 1940s, EVEN). THEY HAVE ALREADY PARTICIPATED IN LIVE FIRE WITH ENEMIES. THEY ARE FIGHTER PILOTS. THEY ARE HELICOPTER PILOTS. THEY SERVE IN CONVOYS OUTSIDE THE WIRE. THEY HAVE EARNED PURPLE HEARTS AND COMBAT BADGES. YOU ARE A FUCKING IDIOT.

But men won't be able to keep their hands off women! Women are too distracting!

YOU ARE A FUCKING IDIOT.

Women will make it harder for men to bond!

YOU ARE A FUCKING IDIOT.

But if women can serve in combat roles then who will raise the babies and make the meals and keep the hearth warm and validate my masculinity/femininity and my life choices!?

...And there you go.
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jonhear, ravin_katrinus
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Conversation I just had:

Husband (from office): Hey, did you just watch Stargate SG-1: Singularity? Amazon just asked me what I thought of it.

Me: Yeah, a few days ago.

Husband: You watched it and you didn't invite me?

Me: ...yes?

Husband: I would have wanted to watch too, you know!

Me: ...I'm sorry?

Husband: Humph.


I love my husband.

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